Aember Shea Grey

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Legal Name/Pen Name

Aember Shea Grey

Bio

I'm a first time writer although I've been writing short stories and poetry since I can remember. I'm writing the autobiography as a way to release what I've held inside for so long, pain. I believe I held this pain so close to my heart that my heart began to see pain as something precious, something special to me. My heart became fond to this pain and created a life to continue the pain. Living void of emotion, I let pain rule. I'm writing this book to free my emotions and unchain my heart. I want to release the pain I kept deep in my heart. I want my heart to feel a new reality. Pain has no value and is no longer precious to me. No matter how much I intellectually see this, if my heart doesn't feel it, I cannot live it. I hope others can find value in what I write. I want to believe when you turn your nightmares into your dreams, you'll never fear being alive and will always sleep well!

Major Influences

My biggest reason for everything in my life is my children, their love, futures and happiness are the reasons I exist!, Sparky, one of my best friends, was my biggest inspiration to write. He challenged me into showing my truest self and accepted me for who I was then he applauded like I was something special. He believed in me and helped me see what I said had value. When I didn't see that, he'd scold me for not believing in myself like I should.:), Then there is Gordy, a great editor but more a friend who cares. He's always worried that this writing was too much and hurting me by forcing me back into the dark places of my childhood. Even with his conservative nature he was still able to see the good in my extreme ways. I thought my writings would bring pain to others and didn't want to hurt anyone or burn bridges. He helped me to see how I could be burning paths to emotional strength and growth for me and maybe even others. They've both helped me to see the need to have faith in myself. They've helped me see that my true strength is that I'm being open and living in reality. It is through knowledge of my shortcomings, acceptance of my weaknesses, respecting my limitations but still having the courage to love myself that has allowed an open door to start healing.

Recommended Reading

"1984" by George Orwell- I love this book because I believe the world does try to mold us into what they think we should be. I think we naturally want to be good until we're told we aren't good enough as we are. That leads to feeling oppressed and manipulated. When we resent what they say we rebel because we feel anger and desperation, it fuels a hopelessness. We're uncertain of who we are and who we're supposed to be. We aren't naturally who they want us to be but we aren't allowed to act on who we are. This can lead to emotional isolation. When we know we're not accepted we feel lost and empty. It would be natural to begin to reach for anything to fill the void, even selfishness. A "me first" attitude because nobody cares. You wonder "Why should I care?" This question doesn't go away, it continues to be asked in our heart until we heal the pain and fill the void., This book describes the hopelessness and emotional isolation that happens when you are so oppressed that lose your identity. It is my favorite book and my least favorite book because it's so deeply intense!, "1984" by George Orwell, I loved it because we see two people living in an environment where they have to suppress their true desires. You see the damage it does and the pain it creates. Winston and Julia broke through the control to feel love even though love was forbidden. They followed their hearts to ease the pain and emotional isolation. Love is such a basic need. I was proud of them as they rebelled against all odds and found themselves in each other even though they knew it would only be for a moment. They knew they would be punished for this. But behaving according to Big Brothers laws wasn't good enough. Big Brother wanted their loyalty over the love they had for each other. Big Brother wanted to kill their feelings. Winston and Julia invoked a death sentence the day they followed their hearts most basic need to find love. They were isolated and tortured with the intent to make them turn on each other. When the torture finally broke their spirits they could barely even recall the vague memories of something special. Big Brother had killed them emotionally, he reached inside and stole their souls from them! I didn't realize at the time why I reacted so emotionally to this book but I was so angry I literally ripped the book to shreds! I hate Big Brother! I hate all the organizations that try to steal your soul by forcing you to be someone you're not instead of inspiring you to be the best person you are!

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Female

Country

United States

First Name

Brook

Last Name

Hall

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