A day in Life
written at age 19
So young, innocent and naive
So unwilling to deceive
Longing for a father to abound
Longed for, until one came around
Waiting for the man to come home
Waiting for him all alone
Feeling emptiness trembling in her stomach
she was afraid
Feeling the terror
wondering what law she had not obeyed
Taking refuge in a closet trying to hide herself away
Praying he wouldn't notice until another day
As he entered the bedroom all she could see was his shoes on the floor
He hadn't noticed yet her blanket covered her hiding behind the closet door
Her heart was beating so fast she could feel it in her ear
She was so terrified, she thought he would hear
He stood so long not saying a word that she would pray
Maybe it was this day, she had gotten away
Her prayer went unanswered, as she heard him say
Where is that little girl hiding today?
Why would she need to hide somewhere, is she trying to get away?
She must be hiding because she's done something bad today
Come out little girl your daddy won't hurt you
Come out right now or i'll come get you
She quickly pulled herself up from the floor
and crept out from behind the closet door
Today he would take her in his mighty arms and spin her around
Today was not a good day, she had been found
He asks, “Today have you lied?”
“No, no daddy!” she would cry
Well if you haven't lied
Why is it you cry?
You must have done something very bad
Is that why your terrified?
He took a deep breath and smiled
He knew he had time for the game, time to quiz her awhile
Why is it that you lie?
Don't you know you deserve to die?
Her empty stomach began to tremble
Her mouth began to dry
She knew what would happen now
As she gave up she had that vacant dazed look in her eye
About Aember Shea Grey
Legal Name/Pen Name
Aember Shea Grey
Bio
I'm a first time writer although I've been writing short stories and poetry since I can remember. I'm writing the autobiography as a way to release what I've held inside for so long, pain. I believe I held this pain so close to my heart that my heart began to see pain as something precious, something special to me. My heart became fond to this pain and created a life to continue the pain. Living void of emotion, I let pain rule. I'm writing this book to free my emotions and unchain my heart. I want to release the pain I kept deep in my heart. I want my heart to feel a new reality. Pain has no value and is no longer precious to me. No matter how much I intellectually see this, if my heart doesn't feel it, I cannot live it. I hope others can find value in what I write. I want to believe when you turn your nightmares into your dreams, you'll never fear being alive and will always sleep well!
Major Influences
My biggest reason for everything in my life is my children, their love, futures and happiness are the reasons I exist!, Sparky, one of my best friends, was my biggest inspiration to write. He challenged me into showing my truest self and accepted me for who I was then he applauded like I was something special. He believed in me and helped me see what I said had value. When I didn't see that, he'd scold me for not believing in myself like I should.:), Then there is Gordy, a great editor but more a friend who cares. He's always worried that this writing was too much and hurting me by forcing me back into the dark places of my childhood. Even with his conservative nature he was still able to see the good in my extreme ways. I thought my writings would bring pain to others and didn't want to hurt anyone or burn bridges. He helped me to see how I could be burning paths to emotional strength and growth for me and maybe even others. They've both helped me to see the need to have faith in myself. They've helped me see that my true strength is that I'm being open and living in reality. It is through knowledge of my shortcomings, acceptance of my weaknesses, respecting my limitations but still having the courage to love myself that has allowed an open door to start healing.
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